我是个不喜欢说废话的人,也是不愿意轻易曝露感情的.但是这半年时间发生了很多事情,包括回国,包括实习,包括和女分手,包括打工的变化,包括又认识了很多的新朋友,包括成为一个杀人半职业玩家.当然当中掺杂着痛苦与快乐.

  从没在空间聊过女生,因为之前我怕被女友看到会生气,但是现在可以畅所欲言了.事先想申明,本人是个传统型的男生,虽然外表和谈吐截然相反.从高中开始到现在,接触的女孩子很多,谈过的女朋友也有些了.但是现在想想为什么都25岁的人了,还没有一段能够稳定下来的感情,即使每次都很投入.于是,我开始思考与反思,得出一个结论,对于感情我真的"一错再错".爱情存在吗?爱情是需要有长时间的感情铺垫的,人们所说的爱情是天长地久的象征.但是,人又是喜新厌旧的.于是,矛盾产生了.所谓的爱情难道是刻意抑制感情的一种喜欢吗.爱情就是建立在喜欢基础上，并有长时间相处铺垫的一种责任.人可以喜欢同时喜欢几个人，但是愿意陪伴的却只能有一个.

  又新认识了很多朋友,乖乖,小猪吃天,小不点,译南,小釉子,kevin,精灵,地铁,CK......

  身边的很多人都说要给我介绍女朋友,不知道怎么回应,不过真的想有段稳定的感情.前面的女朋友,把我的胃口变的很大.顺其自然吧.

  马上要开始MEL真正的拼搏生涯了,多吃点苦,相信自己肯定会有收获,加油!祝福我的朋友们!

  吃火锅去了,写到这吧,88

菜吃了不少，酒喝了不少，人见了不少，钱花了不少少，可是总觉得缺点什么。。。

明天要去于波家，他爸爸妈妈想见见我，初中的好兄弟。见他是在新世界门口，依然是潇洒间带点稚气和天真，不错。记得初中那时候去他家吃饭，他爸爸说的话：等你们大了，工作了，兄弟之间好好的，互相帮助，干一番大事业。依然记忆犹新，感叹明天就要去见了，荣巷附近。（插曲：今天还为了某事，到荣巷那去了趟）

见了孙伟（高中的好兄弟），当警察了，不过满嘴脏话，据说是见了兄弟想骂骂~~~~

姬亮，哥们，相亲不断，无论从外表和内心，我认为都是靠的住的男人~~~

薛斌，小学的好兄弟，从小到大一个巷子长大的，幼儿园，小学，哈哈~~~互敲文具盒，互相打架。。。。。。人品相当不错，个性也差不多。也许现在我的脾气要比他差了。结婚，生了个小女孩。兄弟加油。

姚景，好朋友，一路走好，做好决定，坚持自己的路。（借用“不能承受的感动”歌词：全世界看不起你，难道我就能看不起你）你的朋友都不会看不起你，关键你怎么看你自己，自己决定走哪条路。走好。

章海宁，老大，大学好兄弟，来了趟无锡，请他欧风街吃了顿夜宵，4瓶酒，3个菜。分别一年了，再见，有点感受，有点激动，有点希望。。。

陈侃，就轮不上我多说了。

等等。。。

虽然我知道你们不是等等，但请原谅我不能再继续流水账了。

彼此记住，或忘记，至少我们都有共同的回忆。

我，期望，有，美好的将来。

有人问我,你喜欢听什么歌?我答:我喜欢听melody好听的歌,感人的歌.我不喜欢歌曲中掺杂太多的技巧,简单,唱完能够让人产生歌曲本身所要表达的感情就好.举个例子,陈亦迅是我喜欢的一位,陶吉吉我不大喜欢.只是我的个人喜好而已,没必要讨论谁好谁坏.

从大四喜欢看些都市小说,不是因为小说映照现实的我,而是小说映照现实.作者们的很多想法和我相似,只是文笔比我好,并且发表了.说点我看过的小说.

<<八小时以外工作制的白领>>,写实小说,作者的亲身经历.作者是中兴通讯一位销售人员.强烈推荐,假如你是一位销售人员,假如你从事电信事业.每次看这本小说的时候,PSP的背景音乐都会有"爱情转移",两者结合在一起,我认为是种享受.如果你能和我产生共敏的话，也许,也许我们是一类人.

<<粉红四年>>,描写大学的四个女生,好象是...

<<狮城情话>>,新加坡的IT白领...

<<漂来荡去>>,一个永远不懂得珍惜现在的傻B青年,看完我真的很想很想打那个男主角...

<<开满樱花的天堂>>,一位为理想奋斗,出身贫穷的女孩子的亲身经历.能激起人的同情心.(也许从小到大,身边的朋友都是些穷孩子，我特别能产生共敏.自己什么日子都经历过,也许性格很怪,也许可以说我"人格分裂",呵呵)

<<和校花同居的日子>>,还没看完.不过可以肯定的是,小说中的男主角,比我有才,比我高，比我帅~~~

继续说歌,歌词是歌的很重要的一部分.从前认为歌曲最重要的是调子,但是现在发现能激起人公敏的歌词,更为重要.

社会是什么?是个大染缸?也许是个考验人是否坚强的工具.我希望,社会,尤其是中国的社会,再多点纯真的人性.

我在写什么?废话.不善表达请谅解,也许是要表达的东西太复杂了.

不管怎么样，珍惜现在的兄弟,朋友,感情,物质和你的坚持.

在这里原本take了一个apartment,结果因为种种人为因素未能实现.但前期和老四还有老四同学,以及另外一个roommate说好的计划泡汤,他们得重新找房子住,觉得有点对不起他们,哎~~~兄弟不大好意思了,毕竟也是出来混的~~~

结果和kenny一起驱车夜游st. kilda beach,带了4瓶小洋酒,1包云烟,出发了......

虽然东西不多,却从1点聊到了4点半,感觉不错...聊从前,现在,未来;聊友情,亲情,感情,人间琐事...

kenny是个好青年,我知道.云南人,比较实在.

PO两张照片.

男人要有的好东西,本人认为有,一块手表,一套西服,一个贤惠的好老婆.

虽然这表不是太好,但还能凑活着用了,PO一下:

其一,留在这打工.虽然有份不错的labor work,还有些朋友帮我.但是始终不是年轻人的首选.

其二,回上海实习.前公司的同事给我介绍的,上海三零卫士信息安全有限公司.实习工资才1000,所有的开销都要自己来.

两者大概差距5万人民币.

问了好多朋友,意见不一.最后发了个邮件给我教授,以下是他给我的回信:

Hi Lei, This is a very good opportunity for you - getting an internship in Information Security in Shanghai, and I do feel you should definitely take it. Most internships in Australia are announced in August and they usually require Australian permanent residency. So getting one in Australia is difficult and almost impossible at this late stage.  As long as you come back when semester starts there is no penalty. Remember that an intership should not go for more than 3 months maximum. Remember that it is most important for you to complete your Masters degree - you have already invested a lot of money into it, and any job you get now will be very small compared to what you can command when you finish. Explain this to your employer in Shanghai. If you do a good job during the internship often the company will be happy to give you a job when you graduate. Some of the Indian students are also doing internships in India during summer and this is what I am advising them as well. All the very best with your exams and the internship Best Regards Asha 最终还是决定回.为了我的一个想法,丰富人生. 连续两个暑假我都会回去实习,损失的东西是显而意见的,但是得到的东西确是个未知数,也许是0,也许是工作经验,也许......我也不知道.我喜欢:未知的将来. 很多朋友都在等我回,上海,苏州,无锡,镇江,南京,甚至广州;不是为了炫耀,我只是想说:我很想你们! 在这大多都自己做饭,虽然回国到去实习才短短半个月,但请你们放心,该喝的酒都给我留好了,来者不拒! 好开心! 还可以见我奶奶了~~~

At night on 12th Oct, I slept with my mother in her room instead of sleeping in my own room. Lying on the bed, under the light from outside the window, I looked over mother's face with eyes closed. I felt totally hurt in my heart. I was never so afflictive even if When I lost the person who I loved deepest. Despite I tried my best not to cry, but tears still dropped down onto the floor, so badly. I love dearly my mother. Women is the weak group in Chinese society, especially with age increasing, my mother need someone to cherish her. But I still worried about my farther that he may be without soybean mike and honey to drink and fruit to eat. In this way, tears drop down out of my eyes the whole night, likely not to stop. Fortunately, mother had slept already.

I thought I was already past 22 year-old, the divorcement of my parents would have little impression on me. But I am wrong; I am a so sensitive girl. After all, I was so happily lying in the arm of them. I was their treasure in the palm of the hand anytime. I never thought that they would divorce. From I was being sensible; my parents always tangle with each other. But every time my mother abused all the time, my father was with silence and tolerance instead. At the age when I was in middle school, I asked my father why not divorce with my mother? But he said his age was becoming older and older, he had tolerated for 20 years, why should he depart? Seeing my father was silent every time, I helped my father to quarrel since father was so piteous, while mother thought that I being tangling with her because of father’s abetment. In my opinion, I love my mother as well as mother; they take up the same proportion in my heart. My mother is a good mother who is softhearted but would never forgive people apparently. Nevertheless, she is really kind-hearted, but she always does something in a wrong way. She often does something hard but without any good effect. Whereas father is a good father too, for example, even if he still has some work to do, he will ask the driver to deliver him home first, after cleaning the home, then he would continue doing his work. What a good father I have ever seen!

Now they have divorced, mother complained father all the time saying that he is a playboy naturally and reason for their divorcement is because of I. Many times I really wanted to run away, never come back and don’t take care of my mother any more. But I loved dearly her, how could I do that? Mother is a truly kind-hearted that she bought lots of clothes and trousers for my father before leaving worrying that father would not do this himself. In the past 20 years, mother took care both of father and I properly, even to her husband in a subtle way. But she failed to know that what a man really wants is allowance and concern in spirit. A man needs a place like a sort of port to relax when being back home. Mother complained father when he come back late. She doesn’t know the truth that an embrace is better than a complaint at that time, even now she don’t know either.

Every time while complaining, mother thought that the reason for divorcement is totally because of father and me, she took no responsibility for it. My dear mother, do you know that your daughter loves you so much, love dearly you so much, why you couldn’t feel it? After things happened there days, I haven’t done anything to prepare for the IELTS examination. I come along with you instead, taking a walk, talking about some jokes to you. Sometimes I will have a little temper to you. I have no choice because you always said father’s shortage in the presence of me. Mother, do you know that you and father are the most important person of mine all over the world? Do you know that I was so uncomfortable when you said that to me? Do you know that father was thinking about you all the time even you have divorced? Father sent messages to me every day telling me that I should be tolerant when you chattered all the time and told me to go outside for a walk if I don’t feel happy. In these 10 days, I walked downstairs twice, but I will be back soon because I was worried about you. Whilst I was still angry with you as you don’t know that it’s you fault. Why you always said that you couldn’t fit me well? If my character is as bad as what you said, I must have not many good friends. Mother, you will be a little better after I console you every time, but after a while, you will come back again as what you were. Going round and round, I was so tired just all because of you! I am a simple girl, even when I was in junior or senior middle school, I said to myself that I would not listen to your chatter any more, I should go to school. After these decades of years, mother, why you can’t be a little better as what I and father really would like you to be?

You always told me that you will cook for your husband and take care of us even if you are ill, but meanwhile you also keep chattering. Nothing is able to make you be satisfied, especially the things what is handled by father. You thought a thing done by someone else is not as good as you want. You said that I like playing coquetry, no men will fill in love with me. You also said that you never ever do this to father. Sometimes some dishes you cooked is a little salty, we said nothing, but you would try to cover up this as hard as you can so as to we would not blame you. You can cook so nicely delicious food, diligent and clean. You could take care of the whole family in perfect order. But father would say that you are not virtuous enough when he become angry. Do you know the reason why?

I am 22 year-old, though I have not lots of love experiences, from the living of you and father, I felt that felicity is a sort of ability. In other words, not every one has this ability. You can be a virtuous wife even without knowing how to do housework. Mother, do you know that? Actually, a man like his lover acted as a bird relying on him, and then he would feel that he is a true man having the responsibility to protect and take care of her. Mother, you really should think about you did something wrong. Mother, you are right that the daily living is important, but you have missed some details which can be a deadliness of emotion until they accumulated to a certain extent. I believe that men like women who are straight-out. This means you should be cute, magnanimous, and not trivial and not chatter all the time. The thing which a man after a whole-day hard working really wants is the understanding of his wife. A smile and an embrace are far better than chatter all the time. Men like to be praised. Mother, I thought father would be very happy if you kept always praising him at that time. Women need to be loved, protected and favored. I believe you need it too. In the case, why did you always acted like a hedgehog? Why not try to get rid of the annoying stings? Sometimes, your coquetry will not only let father feel that you are his little prettiness and he will be bursting to cherish you. Showing the impression of weakness appropriately is a wise choice in the daily life which a woman had better choose. There is no perfect man in the world. Showing the impression of weakness can exchange harmony, giving a man, your husband more confidence and the feeling of safety. Most of men have imagined acting generously like this. A woman should adapt to his husband, showing the impression of her weakness can make a man feel strong. And the woman can enjoy protecting relying on her man. This is not bad, isn’t it?

In the past, my father didn’t have any female friend. Mother is always suspicious with him, chattering all the time and said that father is a natural playboy. Mother, have you heard about a story call “wolf is coming”? Do you know the reason why father has some good girlfriends outside subsequently? This is all because of that you always show an inhospitable face to father, chatter never-ending and be suspicious all the time when father was coming back. Father was so afflictive. Rome is not build in one day! Among most situations, some one takes advantage of the misfortune of a family to do something wrong. Thus, women should believe their husband rather than be suspicious excessively. Why marry the man you didn’t believe at first? Moreover, women should pretend to be foolish in some proper situations. To be honest, pretending to be foolish can make you happy. Pretending at first, and then being truly foolish, like you would lose your ability of language if you didn’t speak it after a long time. In this way, you will make your husband feel that you need him. Burden of the family with the sensibility towards the woman who he loves will make the man take care of the woman to the utmost.

At first a woman should refine themselves, having a good morality and character, and then being a cute woman. let oneself deserve the love. I believe this is what all men would like.

A good woman is virtuous. She can keep well-meaning smile towards anyone, behave unhurried, handle things properly and speak nicely. A smart woman always acts like a foolish woman and a stupid woman, while this kind of women tends to be loveliest. Most of lovely woman tend to be smart. Therefore, mother, I always believe that felicity is a sort of abilities.

Now it is not late for you to struggle to this kind of abilities, because father would come back to you if you have made some changes with yourself.

原因:  自己想有个博客,同时也感谢sports.sohu.com/nba一如既往给我的NBA信息提供.

目的:  不明确,也许为了交友,也许为了维持友谊,也许为了记录生活,感想......

希望:  大家支持.

结束语:  谢谢